procrastination-

So overwhelmed today.

I have to get my Missouri Constitution paper finished before tonight.  I need to work on my court cases paper, and my HUGE English Comp paper.  My nephew, Jake, is in the hospital once again.  I was up at Cox until 11:30 last night- didn't get home until 12:30am! 

I have so much on my mind, and none of it is what should be.  I can't stop thinking about our hopes and dreams and after watching Food Inc. I want to get started on our greenhouses sooner than ever.  We hope to make it where I will be able to work at home.  We would like to raise strawberries and tomatos in the high tunnel greenhouses.  We think we only have about 6-7 roosters so when we get the coop built we will probably buy some fryers from Cackle Hatchery in Lebanon.  I hope to be able to set up a farmer's market type operation.  Selling eggs daily, tomatoes and strawberries (when no one else has them available) and we hope to plant about 5 acres in corn next summer.  I am thinking about also making bread and cakes to sell.  I really like to make bread, and angel food cakes.  I figure I can make the angel foods if or when eggs aren't selling great- it takes about 16 egg whites to make and frost an angel food.  I can't wait to get done with school-but I have about 2 years left.  I want to finish my accounting degree but I also want to take a few greenhouse management classes, a class on pesticides, and some other classes.

My plan right now is to do the greenhouse thing- and once the kids are in school I will substitute teach as well.  I think I will be able to make enough money from both incomes to make a profit.  I know the greenhouses will be a lot of work, but I am willing, especially since it is something that I am passionate about.  I want my kids to eat healthy and have healthy lives.  I don't want them to think McDonald's is appropiate for everyday consumption.  I want to cook meals for them daily, and show them responsibilty.  I hope that my kids don't turn out lazy.  When they are older they will not be allowed to watch TV in the middle of the day, unless it is bad weather or they are sick.  I want them to go outside and enjoy God's creation.

I have so much I want to say- my wheels are just constantly turning.  We may be living a technology world but, I want my kids to understand hardwork and live a lot like I did when I was raised.  I think too much of a good thing is never good.  Computers are great, but a person shouldn't sit at one all day long.  I hope my kids will understand and share our love for the enviroment.  We are not what I would call "green" people, but we live within our means.  We don't compost- I still don't technically know what the point is... I use disposable diapers, we have trash service, we use pesticides, we drive diesels, etc BUT we try to do some good things- so I hope what we do, do helps some.